However, I guess I’m going to be giving it a “soft opening” like a business does before the official “Grand Opening.”
I’ve been preparing for my MSY by praying and seeking God but I didn’t think I’d have to actually be at a point where I’m specifically praying for something that will be connected to next year. I’ll have to admit I was missing a few signs that God was placing in my path that He worked through my wife to whip me in the face with this morning.
A few months back I had been exposed to a guy named Ben Arment and something he called “Dream Year.” It’s a program designed to help people with big dreams step into those dreams in one year. Ben’s very well respected among people I follow on Twitter and so despite my not knowing much about Ben I decided to look into Dream Year.
It seemed like something that was exactly what I needed to make a part of my life.
Accountability. Encouragement. Ideas. Fellow travelers. Structure. Things that I knew were areas of weakness and having someone who’s walked that road in the past could be a huge asset as I tried to move forward.
I investigated “Dream Year” more via the internet, tried to contact someone who was involved in the program for their opinion (she never responded) and prayed about it.
It would cost around $200 a month for the year. I can’t afford to add that kind of money to our budget. It’s not there to add no matter how much I may want to add it. I didn’t feel good about chasing it even with an application for one of their scholarships. So I just deleted the link from my bookmarks and put Dream Year into the rear-view mirror.
Then, a few weeks later, I noticed something on twitter. Ben was having a three day mini-conference that compressed most of Dream Year. And he was bringing it…to Nashville.
And just like that, it’s back on my radar.
And I find out it’s $250 for the weekend.
And I still can’t afford it. So I had a laugh at the fact it was coming to town and at the time gave a nod up to the big guy for the way he brought it back on the radar. Again, I just pushed it aside.
Then I saw a tweet on Friday. It came from the Crosspoint Church twitter account. The Dream Year event wasn’t just coming to Nashville. It was coming to my home church. No hotel needed. No travel costs.
This coming on the heels…literally the day after…I announced my “Mustard Seed Year” I had an immediate reaction. ”It’s a shame I can’t afford it.” I tweeted that thought. A really cool frood, Stephen Brewster, challenged me on it and said that we need to invest in our futures. I whole-heartedly agree with that view…and Amy & I had already decided to work on cutting down debt that perhaps in 2012 I could go after Dream Year (among other things.)
Then I began to feel conviction. It started sitting on top of me that something would be happening just three weeks into the Mustard Seed Year that is all about the things I’m doing in the Year. Tools, wisdom, education, training…all at the same place where I weekly think “man, I wish I had Pete’s hair.”
But I brushed it aside.
This morning as we were sitting in church, my wife passes me the bulletin. I usually don’t read the bulletin on Sunday morning so I hadn’t noticed something toward the bottom that my wife circled and then pointed out by tapping on the paper. ”Dream Year Retreat” was the header. She was tapping toward the bottom where it said “Enter code for a $50 discount.”
So now it’s $199. I still don’t have the money but it keeps getting put in front of me…closer and closer to where I could afford it…
Or step out in faith and ask God to provide if He wants me to attend.
It was the essence of the Mustard Seed Year. Give it to God, tell Him to do what He wants to do and accept whatever He puts in front of me.
I’m going to start praying that if God wants me to attend this Dream Year event, He will provide a way to make it happen. If He doesn’t want me to go, then it will come and go without me being there.
And it’s a weird feeling as I pray and prepare…because I’m hopeful but I’m not feeling as if my heart will be broken if I don’t go like happened with the Blue Ridge Conference last year. It’s a really cool feeling…being able to say “God, if you want me to have this, it’ll be wonderful. If not, I know that this is not your plan for me to do what you’ve placed into my heart.”
I’m really loving this freedom in Him. Makes me even more eager to jump into the MSY in 2011.
Have you ever found yourself in a place where God is asking you to take a leap of faith even if you know there’s a chance He won’t be giving you the thing upon which you’re asked to leap?
Update Monday 7am: I woke up this morning to an e-mail from someone who said they felt led to give $100 for me to attend Dream Year. So less than eight hours after sharing this, God brings me half of the way. It’s something to wake up and the first thing is God whacking you in the face with His power to move through His people. I laid back down and just started laughing. I couldn’t stop myself. God is awesome. I feel so unworthy and so blessed.